18

Turning 18 in two weeks has really given me an opportunity to look back and forward on my life.
I've recalled back to my earliest memory.
Living in the little town of Vernal Utah.
It was my little sisters baby blessing and I was sitting at my plastic table in my over sized t-shirt and my barney underware on with absolutely no care in the world.
With my plastic tea cups pretending there was actually tea in them.
I remember my uncle coming to sit and join me and  he sat and pretended to drink tea out of plastic cups sitting at my plastic table. That was too small for him but he sat with me anyways.

How wonderful was it to not care to be so young, have no cares in the world.
Just you and your imagination.

I remember turning 12.
Having a birthday part with my crazy friends and I.
Just a couple of us girls.
Talking about boys, 6th grade, going into middle school, growing up.
Getting older with age but still young at heart.
Laughing just enjoying each others company. We watched the Goonies and made memories. Things i will remember for a lifetime because it was special.

Turning 16 was such a special time.
It was entering into a new life. Driving, dating, high school.
Everything you have waited for and been so excited for our whole life.
My birthday party was something I will never forget.
Sharing my birthday with my best friend, and him and I celebrating that new time in our lifes together.
Dancing the night away and celebrating our friendship and our new journeys.
How lucky was I to have such amazing people surrounding me to make that day so special.

Now I am almost 18 and remembering all of these fun special moments and realizing this fun and play is almost over.
I am growing up and sitting at that little plastic table has turned into a plastic desk full of books and papers that haven't given memories.
Those plastic cups that i pretended were empty are now glass and filled with coffee so i can stay awake at a 9 to 5 job that I hate.

I will not let society destroy the little girl in the barney underwear with the plastic toys.
I will always be that little girl no matter how old I am.
Even 18.